Thursday, November 12, 2009


Yesterday day was long and tough. I wasn't happy with a single class that I taught and my body felt like it had been through a wringer. On the subway home, I had to keep repeating: “I'm kind to myself” because I was definitely NOT being kind to myself. I can be pretty self-critical when it comes to my teaching. After meditation, I fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow and didn't budge until morning.

I woke up feeling sore and bone tired, I didn't want to get up. I wasn't sleepy-tired, my body was tired. Instead of falling asleep during my meditation, I was very distracted. I can't remember ever being so distracted during a meditation. It was like my brain was too numb to focus, so it wandered aimlessly, everywhere.

After a quick walk, I did a 60 minute Hatha practice: Lunar Flow with Lisa. I've been saving this one for a 'hard day.' This definitely qualified. I love the 60 minute version, as I thought I would. It's a perfect downshift class. During the class, I was actually moaning as I came into some of the poses, but I felt so much better afterward.

I laid on the mat for another 20 minutes, using the Acuball to smooth out the tight spots in my back, took a 30 minute nap, then a hot bath. Add some chai tea and I was feeling perky again.

YogaDownload has completely changed their web site - new look, new process, new stuff. In order to download classes, I now have to go through a 'shopping cart' process, which is a bit annoying. Also, the search function on the site is now terrible. I hope they improve it (or return to the functionality it previously had).

On the bright side, there are five new classes available and videos. For non-subscribers, there's a new pricing scheme with one-use and full download options.

Yesterday, I wrapped up my Astanga 'six day' week. Now that I have my sleep schedule regularized, I was curious how more Astanga would effect my energy levels. I'm delighted to be doing more Astanga this month, but I'm not sure if I can do a six day week regularly. If the way I felt this morning is any indication, full Primary on a regular basis may not be sustainable, at least not at the moment. I feel like I've depleted my energy stores significantly.

Perhaps a four or five day week would be more do-able...I'm still thinking on it. Maybe four days of full Primary, one day of half, one vinyasa day and one hatha day?


susananda said...

Or maybe you would just get used to it??

Michelle said...

I feel like I can only do 3 or 4 days of yoga a week myself. Other than that it is too draining.

Kaivalya said...

I thought about that. If I just carried on and toughed it out, I might adjust. But here's the thing: the physical exhaustion has had a negative impact on my teaching.

I teach 15 classes each week, most clustered into a three day period. If I'm worn out from my asana practice, I simply don't have the energy to give to my students.

This morning, I realised something very important: I practise yoga to teach.

New poses don't matter to me. I wouldn't mind if all I ever did was practice the Primary Series. If my asana practice helps me *grow* as a teacher, it's doing its job.

And if my daily asana practice is draining me, draining the energy I need for teaching, then I need to re-think it.

It sounds like you've found the 'magic forumla' that works for you, in your life. I'm really impressed with how you've re-launched your yoga asana practice and remained committed to it. :-)