Thursday, March 10, 2011

An Unfortunate Choice

I learned an important life lesson this week: When blogging about seasonal malaise, NEVER mention yoga clothing.

Especially shorts. Because, as small as they may be, they GROW. Substantially. Virally. GeezohmightyGawd!

Seriously, 'starting an Blogosphere Shitstorm' was NOT an item on my to-do list this week. I'm busy, people. Busy! Being depressed!

Just for the record, there are many, many things that make me sad right now. Losing work makes me sad. Financial stress makes me sad. Visits to the dentist make me sad (and broke). Potentially cancerous tumours in gentle little gray dogs make me sad. And (a tad selfish, but all the same) gaining a thick layer of fat around my middle because I've been eating myself into oblivon makes me sad.

But items of clothing? Not so much.

There's a promise I'm not likely to keep. *snort*


I feel like I'm sleep walking through life these days and I could go on and on about how glum I'm feeling, but I'm trying to keep it positive today. So.

Here are a few things that make me happy:

- Urdhva Dhanurasana: I know! It's crazy, isn't it? But I'm just SO happy that I can DO backbends, without pain. And I'm still walking my hands in. I walk in until my shoulder tweaks and then I stop. But it's AWESOME!

Over the weekend, I even did a dropback! It was late afternoon and I was feeling very open and figured I would hang back. I was so close, I just...dropped. It made me giddy-happy!

- Books: Since I don't do drugs or bungee jump, reading is my escape from reality. I've been devouring a book (or two!) a week since the new year. I just finished the Hunger Games series and it was *amazing*.

I'm currently trying to get into the Stieg Larsson books, but I'm stuck in the first chapter of the first book, trying to get interested. Is anyone out there a fan? Tell me it will get better, please?! I purchased the first two books on my Kindle, on good recommendation.

- Meditation: I fell off the daily-meditation-wagon for two weeks and couldn't seem to make time for it anymore - except on Wednesdays before Bikram class. I was doing it then because it was so automatic. So I made some space in my regular morning routine for meditation, right before I practice Astanga. If it's easy and kind of not-optional, I'll just do it! (like my yoga practice).

I've said this before, but meditation seems to be an all-purpose remedy for me - for Seasonal Affective Disorder, for healthy eating, for enhancing productivity. I feel better overall when I'm meditating.

- I used to write 'morning pages', a free-association journaling method, in a paper journal every morning before I did my practice. I don't know why I stopped, but when I did, it seemed too difficult to reimplement.

I stumbled across 750words through Kath's blog and I'm *loving* it. I've always been a sucker for statistics and analysis (especially if someone else is doing the number-crunching for me). This website tells me how fast I'm writing, which words I use the most and gives me little 'stickers' for acheiving goals. There's a monthly challenge and if you know me (2-year-yoga-streak, hello?), you know I'll be *totally* doing it next month!

- And finally, this makes me happy:

(via YoginiStar)

How could it not? :-)

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sereneflavor said...

Kai! Shot of adrenaline. Thanks. I love it when you say shitstorm, and the yoginistar swenson clip: priceless!!

Anonymous said...

Love the video, nice alternative to the opening chant you think? (I'm kidding, of course!)

I hope you feel better soon - daylight savings is just round the corner!

Evelyn said...

I'm not sure I'll ever get used to the crazy look of David Swenson's eyes.... I like the still shot of the old dude in the background. wow.

Hey, I did drop backs today too!!! MIRACLE!! Maybe our healing is feeding off each other across the miles.

エスタ said...

Hello, sure you've tried everything to help your mood, but I used to get bad in winter, st john's wort helped as did vitamin b complex. Drawing too, creativity releases a nice does of serotonin, which makes happy vibes! I was enjoying your shorts quips....think sarcasm and dry humour can get a bit lost without tone of voice, your writing is clear enough for me to hear ya! Hope you feel better and that things improve for you soon x

Kristi said...

The Larsson book does get better! Seriously! Just stick with it. You will come to love Lisbeth Salander (serious badass).

750words looks intriguing. I'll have to check it out.

Cabbage said...

I hope Princess Fur is OK! That sounds scary!

Evelyn -- there is a shot in David Swenson's Primary Series DVD when you're inhaling out of Marichy C, I think, and I always get a little creeped out, because I'm turning to look back at the video, and DS is turning his head to look towards me, and he has the creepiest look in his eyes... Haha! Your comment reminded me of that look. Never fails to give me the willies.